I was sitting on the couch watching tv and sunggeling with Xian on the  couch cozy as can be when he told me that he had a question, I said sure, he said "Will you marry me? with a ring I'd previously had,  and I said "Yes!" then he smiled and I asked "For rizzle?" And he said Yes, the I laughed. and now we are engaged.

I keep wondering if maybe there is something missing... that maybe I'm just having seizures or some strange chemical imbalance and I don't really have a list of disorders a mile long. I feel sick thinking about it.

My Neice was born a 6 am this morning, and where was I? In Muncie asleep. Why you ask? Because my dumbass "father" forgot to pay my phone bill. So I was up until 2 freaking out about the storm and my lack of phone, nothing I could do about it - then as soon as i get to sleep brianna goes into labor and NO ONE TRIES TO CONTACT ME!!!!

I wake up with an asthma attack from the storm and stress, and an hour later as i'm freaking out because I missed class, I discover that I have a neice now, and no one cared to tell me about it. So fucking angry. I'm not even a member of this family anymore.